Anonymous
Please pray for me to release this deep deep explosion of different emotions now when I finely open my wound that I carry all my life in silence, building for decades of watching my parents behavior towards me and my sister. After 4 clearings right now I am able to wright you. I am working on this for years from being blunted to becoming aware that I want to let go, release, open my heart and move out of this soul agreement to liberation thanks to you Bonnie. Her being princess doing everything for her and me being servant, the one who clean, poor, nobody....There behavior will never change and I can accept that, but out off my watch. I feel so deep sadness, grief, hurt, anger, rage, resentment, guilt, shame... explosion of all at the same time, and only hurt me because even If I say something they comment that I am jealous, not right, imagining, not true...I love my sister she is who she is, but now with 51, after years of trying to get out, being quiet, watching every day, not asking, avoiding, with some moments of anger, doing your clearings (53) I am ready to let go of this suffering, being aware that I was 50% guilty, only I need help with this burst of energy coming out from wound that is so strong that overwhelm me, because I can feel how long I was in this, and I am sad that I never felt as a daughter, equal, loved, and that is painful. I do not have hate but I want accept what is and let love in and have my life free of this explosions. Please help me, please. Thank you.
Received: May 29, 2022