Bonnie reads through each and every prayer, activating them on your behalf and intervening on higher energetic planes so that your prayers are heard with crystal clarity. This sacred space offers a heartfelt community to share your deepest hopes and fears on a donation-based model. Regardless of your ability to contribute monetarily, all prayers will be answered.
Hi Bonnie
Can you help me recover my soul please? or my body? I would say both because even with your clearings I still feel shattered.
I have been doing many different clearings and the pain of my soul is bigger and bigger and bigger. I really don't know what to do to feel better. As you know affirmations don't work and specially with this holes in my souls I feel I just throwing everything to the toilet. What you call opportunities feels like someone is tearing my soul, body and self into a shredding machine and my being is being lost in a sorrow and pain abysm where there is no return. I feel so knocked out that there is no way to recover. That hurting/being hurt to heal is the sadist ways of the souls to help each other and I find it extremely impossible to accept or experience/live. This is so unbearable!
What is the purpose of the new paradigm because it feels like the old manipulation of the church on when you die you'll go to heaven and have a good life, but that is there and that is IF you were a good human, otherwise you have to keep coming back until you nail it or get it right which I would like what is that precisely, what is to get it right?
I also feel betrayed by god, I was looking for the light and instead the darkness took over. I know there are people trying to hurt me and get rid of me for real, is not paranoia, and I also know that I had to face them but the toll it has taken had been so expensive and exhausting and detrimental for my well-being that is not worthy living like this.
I've been asking to be able to make/get/receive more money so I could take many healing classes and sessions with you and other healers and money hasn't come yet that feels so devastating, is like is never going to show up and feels so heartending. One thing I would like to ask you is that if you really need to cry everything out or even drop yourself on the floor crying to let it out because most of the time I feel like a volcano of rath going to explode/erupt and I had several times but it doesn't end/finish.
I have asked here several times to be freed from Andrea, Yvanna, Roy and their partners in crime for all their psychic, astral and mental attacks, and even in person because they sent someone to attack me in person in the shelter when I was living there and just seems it will never end, I just can't see the light at the end of the tunnel as they say so I don't really know if my life will ever be worth living.
I find that writing here to you is therapeutic but is not good enough to finish the cycles that I don't know or understand. I know I had to let it out but it kept coming back, it's not like what you talk about that the mind keeps looking for it but cannot find it, my mind kept finding it and kept attracting those weird, bad, fucked up situations that is shattering.
I really thank you for reading my essays and praying for me. Thank you so much.
Woman in distressed
